Keeping an aloof mind in check

Sometimes the simplest solution can be the best medicine for jumbled thoughts.

Approx. 1000 words; 5 minutes read time

From an early age, I struggled with being aloof. I guess it is because I get so engrossed in whatever it is I am doing. This absentmindedness caused me all kinds of difficulties as a kid. School was a challenge, and I labored to pay attention. Learning to ready myself and be on time was also difficult1. A particular challenge was that I often misplaced my wallet. Granted, this was not like an adult's billfold – with credit cards, driver license, and other important things. But it did have my library card, a few pictures I cherished, and the little bit of cash I had. As a preteen, losing it was a big, stressful deal.

Misplacing stuff for me extended far beyond my wallet. As a creative kid, I'd get engrossed in making things and invariably lose track of what I was using. Hammers, wrenches, pencils, markers, brushes – all would go missing2. But losing my wallet was the most jarring of all. Doing so on an already chaotic morning was panic-inducing. Even when I would find it (as I always did), the distress caused was deep and lasting. Seeing me constantly in knots worried my mom to no end.

One morning had been particularly hard as I went through this all-too-frequent cycle3. Whatever had been going on that morning or the day before, the experience was harrowing. I didn't recover all day – I couldn't focus. I was sad. My friends had felt like obstacles I had to avoid. And my classes were excruciating punishment. By the time I made it home, all I wanted to do was hide.

My head hung low as I walked in the door that afternoon. I was ready to retreat in solitude, but Mom met me as I entered the house. "John, let me show you something." I wasn't in the mood and grumbled at her like kids are apt to do. But she kindly insisted and led me down the hallway.

Little did I know that my life was about to change.

As we reached the doorway to my room, I noticed there on my bookcase she had placed a small, wicker basket. It was nothing special at all, a modest receptacle in plain view. "Why don't you try putting your wallet in here each day," she said, pointing at the basket. "That way, it is there every morning when you need it again." "Okay, thanks," I grunted, and dropped my wallet in.

We didn't speak any more about it. I went on with my afternoon, engrossed in making while recovering. I found that creating helped me forget my troubles, a lesson I would carry with me into adulthood. But this afternoon was unique as the worries disappeared more quickly than usual. Mom's kindness had been helpful, as always. But more than that, I had a new feeling like things were going to get better.

The next morning, I grabbed my wallet from the basket, remembering what Mom had said. That afternoon, in it went, right where I had found it earlier. And there it would go from then on.

What Mom instilled in me that day was the power of routine. Up until then, routine had felt like the challenge. Routine was the same bothersome thing over and over. But without it - novel events like new homework and schedule changes overwhelmed me. With my aloof nature, diversity was the real challenge, not routine.

Routine was my friend.

The peace I felt that afternoon was from this new perspective. I could now better deal with the unknowns brought on each day. The simple act of putting my wallet in that basket had freed me to do more. Instead of chaotic mornings searching, I was calmer and more focused. And the peace of mind I had, knowing where my wallet would be each day, was reassuring—a simple act to be sure. But grand and far-reaching were the implications it would have for me. I was now more in control, and that was empowering.

I soon learned to apply this control to other challenges in life. My room became cleaner, and my projects were more organized. Sure, I'd still get lost in my head and misplace things. But less so. And as time went on, I addressed many obstacles that were once defeating. I became a better student by organizing my notes. My thoughts before, a jumbled mess, became focused and clear. Projects benefited too, and in turn, I was more industrious. Without the distraction of losing stuff, I was less anxious and even more creative.

I've continued to grow over the years, and today, for the most part, I would say I keep my life in order. In the simple act of addressing the lost wallet, Mom helped me to tame some of my inner demons. But don't let my tidy home and organized Lab fool you. I am still the same messy, distracted kid inside. But I've learned a few simple daily routines that keep my aloof mind in check. I'm now free to do so much more.

And I know right where my wallet is. Now, where did I put my glasses?


1 Psychologists like to assign serious sounding names to behavior like mine. I prefer to think of it as crap I have to deal with in being me.

2 To make matters worse, my room was a tangled mess of half-built models, chemistry experiments in process, strewn about action figures, and piles of clothes littering the floor. It’s a wonder I didn’t get lost in there myself.

3 It seems like an easy fix today, but as a preteen, this was a real struggle. I didn’t yet know how to train my mind otherwise.

Life skills, planned obsolescence and the fate of a disposable washing machine

Diagnosing a failed washing machine drain pump. Do try this at home.

Diagnosing a failed washing machine drain pump. Do try this at home.

In a time when everything made seems disposable, knowing how to fix stuff can still be a valuable skill.

Approx. 2250 words; 12 minutes read time

I grew up in a working-class household with four kids. Things were tight, and it was important for my family to stretch a dollar. Thankfully, my parents were resourceful folks. Pop was the carpenter, mechanic, and repair whiz. Mom was the gardener, maker, and saver extraordinaire. Between the two, they embodied a trio of life skills rare these days: Know your stuff. Take care of your stuff. And be able to fix it when the time comes.

More than an exercise in frugality, theirs was a philosophy for life. A philosphy that embodies self-reliance, value, and respect. But today the postmodern world is hell-bent on doing away with this way of life1. At the risk of sounding like a curmudgeon, most products today are either disposable or "trashable."

Sub-optimal or weak materials and impossible-to-repair designs limit the lifespan of devices. Other limits are psychological and take advantage of consumerist desires for the newest, greatest, biggest or best next thing. These both achieve a common goal - planned obsolescence. These are products that are replaceable, not repairable.

About three weeks ago, I came face to face with planned obsolescence. My washing machine broke down - it was only three years old. My upbringing dictated that I should try and fix it. But complicating matters, it failed the Friday before my planned Monday website launch. I was finalizing web content and drafting my first blog. I wanted to fix the washer myself and knew I should, but I didn't have the time.

I was pre-soaking in dilemma, you might say2.

The machine in question was like new. It's one of those front-loading things with a heavy, bulbous clear-glass door. It looked like a spaceship part and cost as much - about 550 bucks. For a washing machine, I guess you'd say it's fancy. At the time of sale, I sprung for the name brand with lots of features expecting to keep it for years to come. It was also well-reviewed, so I had confidence it was a good buy. But like anything complicated – the more features, the more likely something will fail. I knew this from experience. Even so, the space-age appeal seduced me3. My future would be clean and bright as I watched my whites get whiter through that glass door.

Most new washing machines (and most modern appliances) have rather sophisticated computers. They help save water and energy, and this embedded technology makes them safer. But at a cost to durability. The ecological benefits are suspect as a result. What they do well is spit out cryptic error codes when something goes wrong. These codes are often nonspecific and hard to decipher.

My machine wasn't draining, so it shut down and locked my clothes inside, along with a deep pool of dirty water. It did not display why other than a flashing code: F3E1. The code meant the machine was not draining. That was obvious, but why? Answering this would have to wait. My immediate concern was not the code – it was the sopping wet, dirty clothes inside.

The only way to open the door in this situation is to remove the top cover and manually depress the lock mechanism. But with the drum half full of water, and being a front-loader, I had to go about draining it first. So much for the clean future my fancy washing machine would bring.

I was about to get dirty.

Draining it required removing the back panel and reaching under the drum to open the filter plug. I emptied the water into a small pan I slid under the pump assembly. All told, it took ten pan-fulls and 20 minutes to drain. With the initial diagnosis and work, I spent well over an hour before starting the actual repair.

Next, I performed the obvious potential "quick fix" checks. I looked for blockages in the drain hose and made sure there wasn't any obstruction in the filter housing or impeller pump. I even unplugged and reset the machine's computer to make sure it wasn't a software glitch4.

Unfortunately, none of these was the culprit.

After searching online, I decided it was one of three things – a faulty water level sensor, a failed drain pump, or a mad Appliance Control Unit (ACU). The ACU, the machine's computer motherboard, is the most expensive by far. The other two parts much less so. Cost notwithstanding, these parts are all pretty easy to get and replace. And I being my father's son, was not concerned about doing the work. But figuring out which part it was still eluded me.

Most appliances have a "hidden" service manual stashed on them somewhere. My machine's, under the top panel, states rather clearly, "Danger! Warning! FOR SERVICE TECHNICIAN'S USE ONLY." I disregarded this and proceeded to run the diagnostic program detailed inside.

The test was all electronic. After hitting a series of buttons in the prescribed order, the test began. The machine first locked and unlocked its door, then went to test the drain pump. It failed, of course, and stopped there. The test told me what I already knew – it was either the sensor, the pump, or the ACU. The book then detailed how to check each component. I tested the sensor as instructed by detaching a pressure hose. The drain pump didn't turn on, so I was on to the pump itself. I used a multimeter and tested current resistance 5. If the motor was functional, the reading should be "approximately 16 ohms." Mine read 15.8 ohms – two-tenths of an ohm difference is pretty darn close, so it passed the test. Crap, I thought.

The book then instructed that if it wasn't the sensor and the pump tested fine, then it was the ACU and to replace that. Double crap.

But really? I wondered. That's it? No other option? If the ACU was faulty, would the diagnostic test have run at all? There seemed to be a lot missing in this evaluation.

I called a local appliance parts place. The sales guy informed me that a new ACU was about $350. That's only 200 bucks less than a whole new machine. When I voiced this, he said the cliché thing I was thinking: "They don't make 'em like they used to."

Mother $%&!#@& crap.

It seemed to me there should be one or two different options to consider. Having to change out the [costly] brain of this thing felt like a last resort, not the third in a series of short tests. And if it was the $350 ACU, wouldn't it be best to get a new machine? One with a new machine warranty? I wouldn't be the first to make this choice if I did.

And there it was, staring me in the face: Planned Obsolescence.

Home appliances are a "mature technology" where there's little room for innovation. Product turnover is thus an effective way for companies to keep sales up. Durable enough to last a while, but then sooner than later they fail. At which time it becomes more cost-effective – and less hassle – for the consumer to buy a new one. Manufacturers play a tricky game. Manufacturers create products good enough to sell and that last long enough. But no longer.

The repair industry has suffered in the internet age, confounding matters. Do-it-yourselfers like me have shown that fixing this stuff isn't rocket science. With a little knowhow, a YouTube video, and Amazon.com, many repairs are downright easy. For those who still go with a repair service, high costs become the real problem. The few professional repair services left have to charge more to stay in business. This turns would-be repair customers away, looking for cheaper options. All because washing machines are designed to fail6.

What results is that more and more consumers opt to buy new appliances. And I too was considering it now. Yes, I was resourceful and could fix it, but I had stuff other than washing machine repair on my mind. Yes, I was bowing down to the appliance gods, wallet out, hand extended in humility.

I felt as dirty as my half-washed clothes.

But what about this otherwise perfectly good machine? The thing itself weighs about 200 lbs. That's a lot of steel, plastic, wires, and glass to discard for a new model, I thought. There must be more I can do.

Pndering my options, I had a moment of clarity.

No! I would not be taken to the cleaners over a washing machine. My dad and mom and the planet were all counting on me. I would fix it. Fix it. FIX IT!

Setting the diagnostic manual aside7, I decided to do another test of my own. First, I unbolted and removed the pump assembly. Even though it tested fine, I questioned the result. So I decided to do what seemed more obvious – supply some power to the thing and see if it would spin.

I wiped some remaining water off the pump assembly, double-checked for obstructions, and mounted it on my benchtop vise. After safely rigging up a couple of wires8, I supplied 110 volts AC and…nothing happened.

I took this as a good sign. It was a pretty simple system – a standard AC electric motor with only two wires. I was 99% sure the motor was dead.

I took a short trip to the local parts store where I had spoken to the sales guy earlier. The place was awesome, a real throwback to the 1980s and a story all its own. After a lengthy wait for no clear reason, and fifty bucks handed over, I had my new pump assembly and headed back home. There, I doubled checked my "testing method" by hooking up the new pump to my vice and power supply and…whirrrrr!!!! It started up like a champ. Problem solved.

Reassembly was a piece of cake. Only a few bolts and a few clamps to put back on. Confirm that everything was sealed and locked down tight. Throw away the extra screws9 and run a test cycle.

Everything worked fine, so I tossed in my half washed clothes from before and finished the job.

My world was once again clean10.

In all, it didn't take too much time. A day of running around and futzing about to get it all done: it went well, and it was an easy fix in the end. As I already said, anyone with the willingness to watch a how-to video and get a little dirty could do it. But diagnosing the problem was more hard than it should have been. And that makes me wonder why. It felt deliberately vague, making my repairs harder than need be. I fear the machine was in some way designed to fail from the get go11.

That is the trouble with planned obsolescence. And its genius too. If done deftly, it works for the manufacturer. And consumers by and large seem satisfied, based on sales and other market trends. I don't care for it, and I do question the out of control consumerism that results. But like many things in this postmodern world, fighting it has its share of costs and rewards.

In working through this, I've grown to like my washing machine even more, not less. After fixing it and learning about its flaws, I know it better now and can take care of it. If something goes wrong again, I have a good start on how to address it. I will save some money each time I do. Better still, I fight a system that otherwise makes me consume and use up the planet's resources.

Good feelings aside, I admit that I was tempted to cave and simply replace the machine. This temptation is powerful and is why planned obsolescence works so well. Knowing this, I feel all the more fortunate that my parents taught me a valuable set of life skills. These are arguably more useful now than ever before. When much of the world is designed to fail, knowing how to fix things is a real strength.

It was a simple washing machine repair. But it reminded me to be grateful for what I know and what I can do. Know your stuff. Take care of your stuff. And be able to fix it when the time comes. What a satisfying way to live. Thanks, Mom and Pop.

Until next time.

Science. Fiction. Create.

JRC


1 In many ways, this is the definition of postmodernism – a trend towards diminishing the achievements of modern society. At least that is what the internet says.

2 The first of several washing machine puns. Brace yourself.

3 As a kid, we had a couple of old washing machine drums lying around. They seemed to me to be the makings of a space capsule, of which I fanaticized about building for way too long.

4 Yes, I’m still talking about washing machine repair – welcome to the 21st Century folks.

5 It starts to get technical here. Overly so, I would say. But if you have one of those handy multimeters at home, you could do this test without even knowing what an ohm is.

6 It should be obvious that this situation is more complicated than I have portrayed. Please do forgive me for blaming all the worlds troubles on my washing machine.

7 By placing it in the recycle bin.

8 And by “safely,” I do mean safely. One time I did not, and the 220 V electric jolt dislocated my shoulder and left me bruised and battered on the floor. Total amateur move that I will never repeat.

9 Just kidding of course. If I had screws leftover I would put them in the extra screw drawer with all the others.

10 That was the last washing machine pun. This went on for too long, I know.

11 No, I can't prove this. Hence I never said what brand washing machine I have! And yes, washing machines have crapped out since they were invented. That's nothing new. But we are in a new era of "disposability." Planned obsolescence is undeniably a part of that.

On Writing Blind Spots

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Approx. 1300 words; 6.5 minutes read time

I imagine there are writers out there who get it right every time. Those capable wordsmiths belt out a perfect story with scarcely an error. For these demigods, the first draft is the best, so off to the printers.

I can assure you that this isn't me. I have writing blind spots.

For the longest time, I've joked that I intentionally put mistakes in my writing. You know, to look more human. But truth be told, I make spelling and grammatical errors all the time. No amount of proofreading helps me catch every one1. These mistakes are sometimes embarrassing, like when I misspell a word. They can also be defeating when I cannot convey what I am thinking.

Frequently blind spots slow me down. Take, for example, the word "it's." I have to think a moment each time to remember to use "it's" as a contraction and "its" when it's possessive. And since we're on it, how many "s's" does possessive have anyway? Just as many as Mississippi it turns out. Yes, simple spellings can throw me off too. Sometimes a word I've written a gazillion times looks wrong, even when it's not.

Thinking about my writing is a window into the quirks and shortcomings of my mind.

I also struggle with word selection. Seemingly obvious word choices I belabor over intensively. Or is it I belabor over intensely? I better go research that. See you in five minutes2.

A rather troublesome blind spot I have is in repeating words unnecessarily. Sometimes doing so is stylistically okay, like in a story on blind spots – I will inevitably use "blind spot" numerous times. But other times it is extraneous and simply poor editing. This repetition seems to creep in as if my mind suffers micro-amnesia moments. From sentence to sentence, I can't manage to remember that I just used a word. Yes, a funny thing the mind3.

A case in point: My post on manifestos. Perhaps you noticed the note I made on February 8th, where I felt obliged to share, "Second to the last paragraph was slightly edited for clarity on 2020.02.08. ~JRC."

Here's the previously posted version of that paragraph, the repeated word in bold:

"Now, I should say that I don't recommend sharing a first draft manifesto with anyone but a therapist. Sometimes this inner voice needs to learn how to behave on the outside first. No, better to get it out in the privacy of one's own laptop or pad of paper first. Step away for a few hours or days and then revisit."

Grammatically this is fine. But stylistically, it is jarring. I remember reading this right before posting and feeling that something was off. But I was so into it at the time that I couldn't see the mistake.

All this exposition gets me to the biggest blind spot of all – my writing ego.

The thing is, I loved both this paragraph and its footnote where I coined the term "manifesto halfway house." I thought I was being clever in equating a draft manifesto to a newly reformed criminal. I loved the paragraph so much that I couldn't see the mistake. So I proudly let it go, out into the world, flaws and all. My ego was dominating. And being so full of it, I simply couldn't see. And then, upon finding it after posting, I just couldn't let it go. So I went back to edit it4.

Errors notwithstanding, the manifesto piece was pretty good. I liked it, and doing the research helped me learn about something new. A few others said they liked it too. I have to remember this, and remember it is only a blog, not an expertly edited novel. Blogs are places where ideas are shared – even half baked, error-filled ones. So what's the big deal?

The big deal is, at best, errors look sloppy. They can detract from an otherwise well-written piece. Just like a sloppy suit worn to a job interview, writing is judged not only in what is said but also in how it looks. And again like that interview, all the well-dressed pizazz won't hide a lack of substance. Errors that detract from meaning are like a job applicant that isn't qualified to do what he claims. It's in my best interest as a writer to continually improve my self-editing abilities.

Self-editing is challenging precisely because of blind spots. If we saw these quickly, they wouldn't likely occur. So self-editing is about finding ways around the snags and pitfalls of our minds.

One method I employ a lot is the time-tested approach of simply stepping away5. I often write something down and then step back, if only for a few minutes. When I return, I have fresh eyes. My mind has time to forget what I think I wrote and come back and read what I did write. I usually do this, although time constraints and self-imposed deadlines limit how much time I can invest.

I also read aloud what I write to check for mistakes and also to see how the story "feels." It's also fun - it reminds me of being a kid. We all started out reading this way but eventually trained ourselves to keep it in. It's an unexpected little joy to let it out. I've started to do so not just in editing but also when I read graphic novels. I even voice the emphases like "POW!" and "BANG!" Try it—pure joy.

Anyway, what does all this talk of blind spots and editing mean? Maybe it's that writing is as hard as it is fun. When it doesn't work, it can be demoralizing. But when it all comes together, it's like magic.

To find that magic more often than not, the best writers out there will encourage us to keep writing. They also tell us not to get caught up in what others think. If the story is worth sharing, a writer will find a way to share it. These sound like words of wisdom for not only writing but also life.

So here I am, wrapping up a blog post on writing blind spots. I wonder how many errors I missed. When I started this piece I began counting the times I used spell check, deleted repeated words, and fixed content errors6. I lost interest somewhere around "a lot" and completely gave up after "ridiculously too many." And that pretty well sums up the writing process for me. It's messy and convoluted. But oh-so-worth-it.

It's also an honor. Humans are the only creatures yet identified that can take internal thoughts and immortalize them in writing7. That's such an empowering concept for me and more than enough reason to improve continually.

Thank you for reading my words. I appreciate you.

Science. Fiction. Create.

JRC


1 This is the standard operating procedure for my emails: 1) Draft. 2) Proof read. 3) Hit send. 4) Read again. 5) Find mistakes. 6) Bang head on desk.

2 A quick shout out to technology and the internet – researching and writing is ridiculously easier with word processing and Google.

3 I even had to work hard on this paragraph, at first using “time” too frequently as well as writing “just” no fewer than three times – in a paragraph on using words too often!

4 This too is quite telling. Ah, the ego. Such a sense of self-importance.

5 Another time-honored method is to write drunk and edit sober. I don’t recommend this, however.

6 Yes, I actually counted. Not precisely, but I started a hash-mark tally and it quickly got out of hand.

7 Extraterrestrial aliens undoubtedly write and do all kinds of crazy things to get their thoughts out. Emphasis on only creatures yet identified. And since we are on it, yes, I am writing some sci-fi. Just a lot of background and foundational stuff to get out right now.

Now for something different – notes on Somewhere East of Barstow

The Desert - Contradiction waiting. Photo by J. Robert Clark

The Desert - Contradiction waiting. Photo by J. Robert Clark

The desert is contradiction. A stark yet beautiful place that belies its danger. Wicked hot days; bone-break cold nights. Seemingly nothing but rocks and sand. But it lives. Plants. Animals. And people. Life, carving out an existence in a landscape engineered to destroy it.

Does a place have intention? Unlikely. But lacking purpose can be sinister. Like an emotionless, steely robot, the desert works to erase what came before. It eliminates what wanders in. And it waits.

Waiting, it is vigilant. Shrewd in judgment and sentence. Often fatal. Occasionally redeeming. Punishing to all.

I visit the desert, but I dare not stay. Under its sky, I am small. Out here, being small feels okay, but only for a time.

Too long in the desert and my thoughts change. Old fears dissipate, replaced by notions both comforting and unsettling. Disembodied feelings of place, not of mind. Foreign. Other.

Something larger than me is at play. No, not God. But akin to it.

In the desert, my sight narrows. Identity drops from focus. Raw experience rather than vision. The desert coalesces around me, striping my conscience bare.

I could easily remain until nothing is left of me but grit and dust.

Then, much like waking from a sleep, I see again. Blurry at first. Then focused. A distant hill comes into view, clear in detail through the dry desert air. My eyes tear and I blink. But no drops fall. Time to leave.

Back to my old thoughts and ways. Comfortable in routine, if nothing else. And for a while, I stay away. But I will return as I always do, to the desert.

Beautiful. Sinister – Contradiction waiting.


It wasn't until my pre-teens that I first visited a real desert. By then, my imagination brimmed with larger-than-life stories from countless books and films. Those 1950s sci-fi flicks on atomic threat and mutated beasts were most influential. Certainly, the most fun. I half expected colossal ants or a giant Gila monster when I first visited1. But despite these heightened, unrealistic expectations, the real thing did not disappoint.

My first desert experience was while on a family road trip "out West." Upon seeing the high deserts of Wyoming and Colorado, I was speechless. So few things in life exceed the hype. But the desert was everything I had hoped it would be – exotic, expansive, and oh so mysterious.

Yes, a land of contradictions. For me, this is the allure of the desert – a mythic landscape with room enough for all the truth and lies you can assign to it.

It's no wonder then that desert stories always draw me in. Rhythm, meaning, and suspense all exist here. Edward Abbey in Desert Solitaire painted the allure of the desert well. He inspired generations of wanderers to find themselves among the rocks and sand. Far different, 2015's Southbound, an anthology horror film, depicts five twisted tales woven together by the desert. The film paints an unforgiving tale of evil woven together by the desert2.

These two stories couldn't be more different, one inviting and the other foreboding. And yet, the desert quietly stars in each. The desert is a character, not only the stage, in these stories. Much like the city in classic noir fiction, the desert envelopes and influences all. And if the city never sleeps, then the desert never ends. This permanence challenges everything else within.

It's safe to say that the desert makes for good story.

My story idea Somewhere East of Barstow is an experiment as I dive into themes of human nature in new realities. The desert feels like a perfect space to drop in and explore these. Here, ambiguity is king, allowing for interpretation and presenting little constraint.

As for the actual desert east of Barstow? This expanse of California desert is rich in history. Here, the western section of Historic Route 66 makes it's last thrust towards the Pacific 3. Hell opened up for the Okies along this stretch 4 as they fled the Dustbowl Era of the 1930s. With few resources and little support, it must have been pure hell.

And yet, a short decade or so on, and in real contradiction, a new kind of prosperity took hold. In Needles and Barstow and smaller dots like Ludlow and Amboy, there was now birth and new life. Post-war prosperity transformed these desert towns in the 40s, 50s, and peaking in the 60s. Car-loving families out in search of freedom fueled this growth. And they created a whole new culture in the process. The quintessential American Dream was defined here as much as it was anywhere else.

But as quickly as this desert blossomed into a string of neon and hope, it vanished back into the sand. The Eisenhower Interstate Highway System ensured it. This vast highway system sliced through the heart of America and killed the old dream for many when it did.

Buildings abandoned and decaying. Whole towns vanished off the map. These booms and busts leave ghosts behind. Families that made their lives here forced out in search of new opportunities. Nostalgia or habit keeps some going, hanging onto the old. But the ghosts now outnumber them by far. Here in the desert, permanence is an illusion. All is open to interpretation. Ripe for story and imagining, "what if?"

Somewhere East of Barstow is a vehicle for me to explore these concepts and see how the pieces fit together.

As always, thank you for taking the time to read my thoughts. I appreciate you and your interest.

Science. Fiction. Create.

JRC


1 I am alluding to Them! (1954) and The Giant Gila Monster (1959). Hulking, mutant wildlife terrorizes mankind. What could be better?”

2 Southbound is far from perfect, but as a horror/sci-fi flick, its haunting atmosphere doesn’t disappoint. You can almost taste the fear as characters realize how lost they are. Warning: Not for the uninitiated or faint of heart!

3 For anyone interested in a guide to The Mother Road, I recommend Tom Snyder’s Route 66 Traveler’s Guide. It’s a bit dated, but it does what it says as a guide and the nuggets of history and fun writing make it a good read.

4 In every sense of the word, environmental refugees. The classic telling unfolds of course in Steinbeck’s The Grapes of Wrath.

To Manifesto or Not - Part 1

I've worked hard to reinvent myself as this writer/maker guy. A big part of this effort has been to lay out my intentions and goals on my website JROBERTCLARK.COM – Science. Fiction. Create. But despite sharing details on my Home, Learn More, Bio, and Blog pages, there is still a lot left unsaid. What will I write? What will I make? What are my influences? And how will I tie it all together? I expect the answers to these questions will come as I get more of my writing and creations out there1. But starting, a manifesto might be useful to set the stage for what's to come. If anything, it will supply more answers for those wondering, "What the heck, John?!"

But who writes manifestos? Don't bad people like Hitler and the Unabomber write them? What is a manifesto really? And what makes a good one? I thought answering these questions would be of interest to others, and not only me. So I decided to do a little background research and find out 2.

Maybe you are like me, and in the back of your mind, lurks this vague notion that manifestos are dark. "Bad guys" detail their nefarious plans in manifestos, right?

But a manifesto by definition is not bad or good. And although evildoers love writing them3, so do well-meaning people. Consulting that oracle of truth, otherwise known as the Online Merriam-Website Dictionary, I found that a manifesto is "a written statement declaring publicly the intentions, motives, or views of its issuer." In this sense, a manifesto is for anyone who wants to share their ideas with the world4.

After working about thirty seconds to define manifesto, my interest was piqued. I then set about taking a deep-dive into the subject5. I found that manifestos of all shapes and sizes exist. Some are brief accounts like a mission statement while others are novella-length treatises. Some are even worthy subjects for semester-long college courses 6. Often manifestos are political declarations. Others are statements on art & culture. And some are individual pronouncements on ideals & personal worldviews.

It seems there are a lot of people with good intentions writing manifestos. Some of these are rather inspiring.

One manifesto I particularly like is Chris Guillebeau's A Brief Guide to World Domination. Don’t let the title fool you – this guy is not on an FBI watch list7. He is a well-known internet sensation and an all-around squeaky clean guy. What's so good (and fun) about his manifesto, provocative title and all, is how he shares his worldview. He's made a career out of Sticking it to The Man by following his passions. That alone is compelling, but how he does it is even more so. He doesn't trash talk the establishment but rather walks his path of "nonconformity." And he does so from a position of self-realization, not externalized resentment. He's his own boss and lives by his own rules – but respects others doing whatever it is they choose to do.

Anyway, in reading Chris's manifesto, you can tell that he believes in his life choices. And he's eager to share his epiphany of nonconformity with all. Watch out though – he's a great salesman. The guy has built an empire around convincing people they can quit their day jobs to follow their dreams. Not that there is anything wrong with that8. Most pertinent here is that Chris has identified and shared what is at the heart of all good manifestos. Regardless of subject or beliefs, a good manifesto makes you listen, believe, and act. Yes, a well-written manifesto declares, "I'm serious over here. Pay attention. Be a part of this."

Back to my manifesto.

After my not-quite exhaustive research, I was starting to think that yes, I should write one. Many of us already have a kind of manifesto within us, waiting to escape9. This "inner manifesto" is part of what psychologists refer to as an "internal monologue." It is the root of how many of us see ourselves and perceive the world. For me, getting this inner voice out might be a great way to do a reality check on what I think and feel. And, as important, to share what I wish to accomplish in my work.

Now, I should say that I don't recommend sharing a rough draft manifesto with anyone but a therapist. Sometimes this inner voice needs to learn how to behave first10. No, better to get it out in the privacy of one's own laptop or pad of paper. Step away for a few hours or days and then revisit.

So after much belaboring over manifestos and their value, I'm sold on the idea. I've already started drafting one. But that advice I spewed about writing it, then sitting on it for a while? Sometimes it's good to listen to that inner voice – so I will ponder my manifesto a little longer.

Yes folks, another cliffhanger11.

Thanks for reading. I appreciate you.

Until next time.

Science. Fiction. Create.

JRC


1 And I’m working on it, trust me!

2 I really just googled the hell out of “manifesto.”

3 Yes, Adolph Hitler and Ted “The Unabomber” Kaczynski both wrote manifestos – bad guys of all kinds write them, so watch out for what links you view online – the dark web is just a browser click away, after all.

4 Not just some loose wingnut. And no, I don’t consider myself a loose wingnut. Please don’t comment. Please.

5 I did another quick Google search.

6 And if you’d like to take a semester-long college course on an epic manifesto, here’s one: ENGL 308 A: Marxism and Literary Theory.

7 That is, as far as I know he is not on an FBI watch list.

8 I first read Chris’ manifesto nearly a decade ago and have been plotting to throw in the towel ever since.

9 No, not like the “chestburster” scene in Ridley Scott’s Alien. That would be bad.

10 I don’t know about you, but my inner voice needs to spend some time in the Manifesto Halfway House before being released into society.

11 But maybe you gathered that already from the nifty foreshadowing in the title.

Note: Second to last paragraph was slightly edited for clarity on 2020.02.08. ~JRC

Welcome to Science. Fiction. Create.

Welcome to the inaugural post for my new, eponymous website and blog, J Robert Clark - Science. Fiction. Create. I am glad you are here. Thanks for visiting. Please do have a look around. If you have any questions or comments, feel free to contact me.

I don’t want to bore you by repeating much of what is already spelled out on my website. For more info please visit my Home, Learn More and Bio pages1.

So, what the heck am I doing? And more importantly, why should you care? Well, I'd like to think it's pretty simple. I write. And I make things. I'm doing this because I am inspired to create, and the time is right for me to engage fully in the creative process. As for you? Well, I will be sharing my writings and other creations in the hope that you or someone else enjoys what I create. I heard today that it is a moral imperative to share one's delight2 - one's joy. Writing and making is a true joy for me, for sure.

In digging a little deeper, I hope I make you laugh a bit3. And I hope I can make you look at things differently, too. Humor is vital because life can be rough at times4. Without a good laugh, well, it’s plain intolerable. And seeing things differently? How better to wrap our minds around all crappy stuff going on and help change it for the better.

What will I be writing and creating? Lots of things. As a scientist, I tend to see the world through a technical lens. And I like writing about the science behind everyday experiences. I also love science fiction and appreciate pushing the boundaries. That's the thinking behind Science. Fiction. Create. - a bunch of sciency stuff mixed in with a good dose of "what if?" and let's see what comes out.

As implied above, inspiration is a big part of this for me. It is what sparks the imagination. It is also what keeps us going when things get tough. Inspiration is what changes the world.

Find someone who loves what they do and does it just because and you'll find someone who is inspired. But without inspiration, you have the makings of a bitter old man5. And no one likes a bitter old man6.

Will I change the world by doing this? I seriously doubt it7. But will I be a better person, more true to myself, and more fully engaged with those I love and care about? Definitely. And that kind of change is infectious.

Thanks for visiting JROBERTCLARK.COM. Do check out the content throughout. I am on social media under SciFiCreate, so follow me on Facebook, Instagram, and Twitter. You can also sign up for my blog and newsletter by sharing your email in the footer of my website.

That's all for now. But stay tuned. Coming later this week - notes on my manifesto.

Thanks again for visiting. I appreciate you.

Science. Fiction. Create.

JRC


1 These pages might still bore you but at least I've spared you the double burden.

2 If you didn't catch This American Life this weekend on public radio, do check it out - the episode is The Show of Delights Note: External link. It was, dare I say, delightful.

3 And if you can't laugh with me, by all means, do laugh at me.

4 This is a good point to mention that my blog and website are basically PG to PG-13, being ever-so-slightly NSFW. Mostly though I write with my young son in mind.

5 Or worse yet, a recipe for landing in an early grave, to be robbed of the meager reward of growing into aforementioned bitter old man.

6 "Grumble, grumble," said the bitter old man.

7 No one changes the world with pithy footnotes as far as I know.